How I Overcame Stage Fright
As a trainer it's important for me to feel first hand what my students go through so I can use my magical problem solving skills and offer solutions to them. I wasn't quite prepared for stage fright though. I won't go into all the gorey details but I will comment on why it happens and what the antidote is. Usually there's a lot going of additional stress going on as well as the impending performance. For me I was in the middle of a degree and the competition was high. As a result I had put a lot of pressure on myself to be perfect and since I was about 20 years older than my peers at uni, I admittedly felt a little insecure about my original material being somewhat uncool. I was fixated on all kinds of pretend outcomes about what would happen if I didn't do XYZ. My stress levels and expectations were very high and I wasn't doing anything about it. For someone who has been on the wellness path for 25 years I was doing a fantastic job at ignoring my body's signals. Palpitations, panic attacks, night sweats, hypos, headaches, aches and stiffness, IBS and chronic fatigue. The doctor even put me on Beta Blockers. My body was screaming out for attention and I ignored it....until, that it, I had a massive panic attack on stage! Yeah, no one wants that. So I stopped performing and decided to sort this out once and for all. Just as the stress symptoms cropped up over about two years, so my healing had to be slow and steady. Slow because like anything worth having it takes a disciplined focus and patience to integrate. Slow is the antidote. I needed to get my mental health back and stop this incessant worrying which was having a knock on effect in every area of my life. Here's how I did it.....